It’s a Sunday, and I’m ambivalent about booking in.
I don’t have to (since I’m not required to stay in camp anymore), but it seems like the right thing to do. It would really suck if I was late for work tomorrow, and I’d rather not take any chances.
It’s been a year since I’ve gotten laid, and honestly I’m quite proud of myself. This year has been rather interesting, loads of drama etc., and I’m happy I didn’t resort to sleeping around to numb myself or give myself some worth. That’s not to say I never felt the urge to have a good shag (sometimes I exclaim, “DAYUM, I need to get laid!!”), but I no longer see the point behind all that fornication.
Evelyn seemed quite surprised when I told her that since 2004 I never saw the need of relationships, though there were a couple of propositions (which were so painful for me to decline since I hated hurting their feelings and sent one to clinical depression). The closest I’ve had to one since then was my three-month “Winter Fling” with this Japanese person. I guess I don’t quite see the point of it all - why put yourself through the hurt, mind-games, etc.? And relationships tend not to last, and sap so much energy. Even so, I’m surprised I haven’t really felt for anyone for close to 6 years, barring the short confused phase I went through over JNP last year.
I’m bringing this up again because I’ve been quizzed about my view on this, hahaha.
Anyway, just spoke to QY over MSN just now… I really, really hope tomorrow would be a good day for her…and if it’s not, I hope it’ll at least be a calm and undramatic week. She really deserves so much better.
And am not looking forward to the next week…though I guess I don’t have much of a choice. But I get to finally be near the track…3am runs, anyone? Would feel damn shiok!
They think they have you all figured out, every crevice of your mind, every ounce of your soul. Your passions, your dislikes, your moods. Your personality - who you are, who you arn’t, what you are capable of, what you suck at…but they fail to see the true meaning of your spirit.
Here’s wishing you a good week! :)
Love,Me.
