As I write this, there’s an unpleasant ache on my left eye/ear/temple. Perhaps it’s the work of my earphones!
Anyway, my day was rather….strange. Mom came for support group and I didn’t join in because I really dreaded behaving like I did in the day programme. Was rather…scared, I guess? I’m not used to talking about my issues to anyone, and I guess I tend not to share for fear of getting things thrown back at my face…even though I’m fully aware that the people in the programme are honestly quite special. Something I’ve got to work on… I’ll probably come in next month!
It was really, really nice seeing QY (whom I playfully “scolded” for not replying my messages TWICE!), E (who seemed amused that I was in army gear) and Ry (who “boo-ed” me from behind, prompting me to slap his chest in reflex!). Evelyn, Dr Lee and the tudung-clad lady were all super nice and comforting. Wanted to give QY a hug, but couldn’t do it in front of all those people…it would seem inappropriate, no? And mom would ask questions…
Felt like a bitch when I snapped at mom for feeling my arm. I guess she was concerned…but it really is uncomfortable when someone constantly feels you up (not THAT way!) and keeps asking if my weight has risen ad nauseum…
She said stuff like, “I don’t know what rubbish you tell your doctor”, “You’re doing this on purpose”, “You don’t eat, I don’t eat. I also want to be like you”, etc. I told her that we normally do things on purpose, just like how dad chooses to eat non-starchy rice instead of regular rice, and expressed my surprise at the last statement. Then she asked why I’m suddenly refusing to eat chocolate and fast food… I just said it was all so unhealthy. And she banned me from going vegetarian. I guess it must be hard for her and I feel so bad for putting her through this… but it’s not as if I find this whole thing a Vladnik carnival myself.
Yesterday was interesting! Went out for the first time with my army friends. We went to Botak Jones - this American-themed chain restaurant located in hawker centres across the island - and had fun! I ordered a Mini-me Cajun Burger and the Stuffed Jalapenos (ooh la la!). Felt really bloated after that. KS and MP truly are entertaining…especially when they fight! :p
Then it was off to meet Eron, his sis and his friend to catch an acquaintance’s performance. It was really, really good! I truly loved the whimsical nature of his play, and the script was amazing. I was crazy and was yakking away to the poor people all the way there, and out. Was silent during the performance, though… I’m a good boy!
By the way, my writing is totally going down the drain. Cringed when I read my last entry…language is all over the place, with no style whatsoever!
Work-wise…I’ve got nothing much to say, except that I’m going brain-dead. Ah wells.
Breakfast: A handful of muesli
Lunch: 1 green apple
Dinner: 3 deep-fried luncheon meat sandwiches
Snack: 1 coke light
Love,
Sujith
